RIDICULOUS

VAMP DIGITAL VERSION BY CHRYSSA VELISSA

I find it  ridiculous

to keep calling

and running after you

to come and spy

outside your door

to watch you 

returning home

without talking to you

without you to notice me

just to be sure

you are there

even without me

It is really mad

to see you talking

with your friends

to know you need 

the company of

other women although

you avoid mine

to scratch the wound

of my jealousy

to keep alive

my loving  feelings

for you although

you chase me away

I know it is outrageous

to still suffer for you

all these years

to deny the touch of

other men to enjoy more

dreaming about you than

living in my active reality

My lips to keep burning

by your few kisses years ago

Oh I'm furious with myself

I love more your being than mine

This is wrong

This is wrong

I deleted my ego

for the sake of a man

who sees I suffer

who sees I am crashed

without daring to be by me

without deciding to support me

hence enjoying to see me tortured

It is such a mistake

that I keep crying

as if you were dying

each morning once more 

as the sun rise up to the sky

and I wake up knowing

you won't exist for me anymore